This is the proof that nothing will matter
This is the sound system waiting for the shatter
They are the sounds breaking us down
They are the voices killing us now
Brace yourself for the confrontation
Steady your values, ready your voice
This is the time to make our noise
This is the time to raise your voice
This is the proof that nothing will matter
This is the sound system waiting for the shatter
They are the sounds breaking us down
They are the voices killing us now
These are the speakers, waiting for the suicide
This is the sound that will be the gun
This is the message killing them all
Trigger the resignation
This is the proof that nothing will matter
This is the sound system waiting for the shatter
They are the sounds breaking us down
They are the voices killing us now
Hold steady for the confrontation
Deny the compromise
Hold on to your demands
Keep the negotiation in your hands
This is the proof that nothing will matter
This is the sound system waiting for the shatter
They are the sounds breaking us down
They are the voices killing us now
Sunday, September 11, 2011
Sunday, September 4, 2011
A bit more about a certain annoyance
I know I've written about the annoyances of being seventeen before, but I'd like to write more about one of those annoyances. The planning for the future during that last year of high school. Its chaotic, trying to piece together all the ways your life will change.
Now some people get out of much of that chaos by simply going to college where they already live, possibly not even moving out of their parent's house. And the more about your life you want to change right after high school the more chaotic it gets. Even a simple move a few cities south can seem insane to someone who is just moving out for the first time. I wish I knew if it was normal to be completely terrified of the future at this stage, but I have no clue.
You have to find a school, which can be chaotic enough, even worse at times when you ask for advice. Everyone has an opinion on what schools are the best ones to go to, which one they think will work for you, but not everyone has the same opinion. If you go to other people for advice there are going to be so many conflicting views that you wont know what to do. And you will regret asking for advice, once the opinions come in. Oh and reading various review sites is even worse, due to excessive use of typos, l33t, trolls, and all other internet bullshit.
Now okay, you finally found a school, despite everyone confusing the hell out of you. Now you have to figure out how to pay for it. Now if you're lucky your parents had some sort of fund for this, or are just rich. But, if you're like me your parents didn't save up a dime for your future education, and don't really have many dimes to offer now. Your family pretty much tells you that you have to live off student loans and whatever scholarships your lazy ass can get. This is where you panic, and plunge yourself into some serious debt. Good luck finding a way to pay for school that doesn't leave you in debt for years and years to come.
So, you've got the money thing figured out? Either you found a rich relative, or got seriously lucky with the scholarships. Or you've just opted for some serious debt. Now you have to find a damn place to live, many schools have dorms, but if the dorms at your chosen school either suck or dont exist you'll need to find a place elsewhere. Finding a place your broke ass can afford, or a roommate that wont kill you, is going to be a pain. You're probably going to end up hating your living situation, just so you know now. Good luck.
Oh and while you're planning all of this you still have to survive that last year of high school. And it will suck. Just understand that you are completely fucked.
Now some people get out of much of that chaos by simply going to college where they already live, possibly not even moving out of their parent's house. And the more about your life you want to change right after high school the more chaotic it gets. Even a simple move a few cities south can seem insane to someone who is just moving out for the first time. I wish I knew if it was normal to be completely terrified of the future at this stage, but I have no clue.
You have to find a school, which can be chaotic enough, even worse at times when you ask for advice. Everyone has an opinion on what schools are the best ones to go to, which one they think will work for you, but not everyone has the same opinion. If you go to other people for advice there are going to be so many conflicting views that you wont know what to do. And you will regret asking for advice, once the opinions come in. Oh and reading various review sites is even worse, due to excessive use of typos, l33t, trolls, and all other internet bullshit.
Now okay, you finally found a school, despite everyone confusing the hell out of you. Now you have to figure out how to pay for it. Now if you're lucky your parents had some sort of fund for this, or are just rich. But, if you're like me your parents didn't save up a dime for your future education, and don't really have many dimes to offer now. Your family pretty much tells you that you have to live off student loans and whatever scholarships your lazy ass can get. This is where you panic, and plunge yourself into some serious debt. Good luck finding a way to pay for school that doesn't leave you in debt for years and years to come.
So, you've got the money thing figured out? Either you found a rich relative, or got seriously lucky with the scholarships. Or you've just opted for some serious debt. Now you have to find a damn place to live, many schools have dorms, but if the dorms at your chosen school either suck or dont exist you'll need to find a place elsewhere. Finding a place your broke ass can afford, or a roommate that wont kill you, is going to be a pain. You're probably going to end up hating your living situation, just so you know now. Good luck.
Oh and while you're planning all of this you still have to survive that last year of high school. And it will suck. Just understand that you are completely fucked.
Its just one of
Those nights, where you realize how much of someone is burned into your memory, the feel of them, the smell, the sounds, the warmth. Those are the nights that make the heart ache, when the word hug in asterisks isn't enough to cure the desire for physical interaction.
Those are the nights that you realize you're with someone who's worth it, and more.
At times its amazing to realize just how much you miss someone. Even more amazing are the details you realize you miss most. When you realize its the details, the little things that seem so unimportant when they happen. Like the way someone holds on to you when you're trying to share a chair, or the way your hand just always finds itself in theirs. Its nights like this when you think of random moments for no real reason, like the time you dozed off on the bus in their arms, or the search for fast food in the middle of a city.
Its nights like this that show you just how much you love someone, when its the things that seem meaningless that you cant stop thinking about, when its the little details of them that keep coming to mind.
But its also nights like this that make your heart ache with the desire to be with them again, and when soon cant be soon enough.
Those are the nights that you realize you're with someone who's worth it, and more.
At times its amazing to realize just how much you miss someone. Even more amazing are the details you realize you miss most. When you realize its the details, the little things that seem so unimportant when they happen. Like the way someone holds on to you when you're trying to share a chair, or the way your hand just always finds itself in theirs. Its nights like this when you think of random moments for no real reason, like the time you dozed off on the bus in their arms, or the search for fast food in the middle of a city.
Its nights like this that show you just how much you love someone, when its the things that seem meaningless that you cant stop thinking about, when its the little details of them that keep coming to mind.
But its also nights like this that make your heart ache with the desire to be with them again, and when soon cant be soon enough.
Friday, September 2, 2011
Fade to lost
darkened skies, steal my breath
I'll wander as we fade
forever remember
oh we never...
where was I
when we faded?
where were you
when we disintegrated?
fragments of a life we should have known
torn into the darkened skies
forever, oh we never
what follows our fallen path?
I'll wander as we fade
forever remember
oh we never...
where was I
when we faded?
where were you
when we disintegrated?
fragments of a life we should have known
torn into the darkened skies
forever, oh we never
what follows our fallen path?
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